love.hurts.me.

Have you ever been in love?
Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart, and it means that someone can get inside you,
and mess you up.

You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor.
So that nothing can hurt you.
Then, one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person,
wanders into your stupid life.

You give them a piece of you.
They didn't ask you for it.
They just did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you,
and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages.
It gets inside of you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness.

So simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' or 'you deserve better',
turns into a glass splinter working it's way into your heart.

And it hurts.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt.
A real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart-pain.


Love hurts me.
Like always.